I have mentioned before an old clock on the wall that has been in my bedroom for many years. In the past I had glanced at it while running out the door. I had stared at it endlessly, ashamedly waiting for time to pass quicker- until this or that occurred. I had ignored it, reset it, dusted it. It was just always there.
When I moved to my new place, I discovered it no longer worked, but I decided to hang it anyway. It was home. Familiar. I set it at high noon and simply enjoyed the decorative part of it.
I thought I noticed a subtle movement but paid no mind. Then being gone for months at a time, I returned to see that minutes had passed. I assumed that the vibration from the spin cycle or a particularly powerful train had caused the movement. I set it back to noon and forgot about it. Soon I was off again to my other home and when I returned more time had passed. I now believed there was a purpose.
The clock moves slowly, 10 minutes in not quite 4 years. But it seems to move forward just when a major life change is happening. Coincidence? Possibly, but I’ll take the mystical every time. After all, what is time? How does it really work?
Time is basically a construct created to manage- well, time. Do we truly know that it is linear or is it at all times, everywhere? Is it different for everyone? Each of us experience our own realities, so, time does move differently for all of us.
Can we travel backward and forward through our timeline? Of course, we can. Time travel is possible every day. Given that our brain experiences fantasy and reality much in the same way, when we daydream about the future, we have moved time forward. When we remember the past, we move back in time. What wonderful experiences we can have!
It seems for many the most difficult part is living in the here and now. We often think about the future in the “If only” this would happen I would be happy or in the past tense, as “I wish” it had been different. We make living in the moment much more difficult than it need be. We only need to be. We don’t need to create a daydream or dig in to a memory, we just need to experience our life good or bad. The feeling we get from daydreaming or remembering can be used at any time to feel good about today.
Is it possible that time runs concurrently with other lives or universes and we have all the things we wished for in another time and place? I believe it is true, however, that also means that in those other places we still have regrets and desires, but they are different. Perhaps even a complete opposite switch from what we wish for or remember in this time.
Time is relative. It gives us hope and makes us weary. It brings good times and softens the pain of loss. It exists always and we move along with it, but with some effort we can manipulate the way we manage it.
I’ve always enjoyed time travel stories and after reading the books, I’m currently into Outlander the TV series. I have always thought how romantic it would be to travel back to a simpler time, but then when I see the reality of that given time, I know that more than likely it would not be the case.
Would I cross through the stones to be with the man I love? Absolutely. And just like a dream that lasts for seconds, yet, can seem a day has passed, I would slip back in to this world with only a faint hint of memory. As I matter of fact, I’m sure that I do that all the time because when I return, the hands of the clock have moved just a little further…